A Side of Shayracha

 PCOS.. what is it? It's Polycystic Ovary Syndrome . In it's simplest form it's an endocrine system disorder that causes hormonal imbalances that, to be frank, fuck shit up. It isn't curable, but it is manageable. This is me. In a public bathroom because I'm classy. I have PCOS. You will notice, I am fat . I carry most of my weight in my midsection, which is typical for people with this disease. Most of the other physical issues PCOS cause (hair loss, excessive hair on face/body, oily skin, acne) are easily covered or treated... the fat is most noticeable to people. Because of how our society views fat people, it's vilified. People see fat and automatically assume "fat and lazy." That however, isn't the case for most women with PCOS. (Or, fat people in general, but that's a topic for another day.) PCOS fat is contributed to by Insulin Resistance . Which means while our body does produce insulin, it doesn't process it like it'

I recently came across a comment on a story about a woman being threatened with a gun for saying no when being asked out (repeatedly): "There's a thing called being nice about it. It's always ok to say no, but there's no reason to act like a bitch over a question. I'm so sick of the feminist bullshit. Whatever happened to gender equality? This is not it. I've been turned down by guys before, you move on. You rarely hear about men going ballistic over shit like this. I dare you to try to tell me women have never gone ins ane over being rejected. It happens. Again, not often. Stop feeling sorry for yourself because you are a woman. Get over it, fight for your freedom, but stop the gender bullshit!" No seriously, someone actually said that. Says the teenage white girl who has been blessed enough they haven't yet had to face or realize women's issues and inequality still exists which is why "feminist bullshit" still exists. I'm go

Health concern trolls, the little angels of the internet. Those who don't hate fat people, they just want everyone to be healthy ! (To them though, healthy is synonymous to skinny; ignoring every other health concern to mankind except obesity.) People who smoke? It's their body! Those who drink often? Their body! Casual drug users? Their body, they're just experimenting. Skinny people who aren't eating "right?" Well that's okay, everyone indulges! Except fat people. Any fat person, no matter how they eat or how much they move: fat is bad . Fat isn't okay, fat is unhealthy! Fat people are a plague on healthcare systems (which in America is laughable seeing we don't have universal healthcare and our care comes from our own pockets or premiums we pay for.) Fat people don't get the "it's their body" treatment. Concern trolls care. "It's science" they say, but it isn't. It's prejudice.  They don't care a

When I say size discrimination, I'm sure different things come to different people's minds. Because of this, I'm linking what Sizeism is. Sizeism is not just for fat people. (I will focus on that though, seeing it is the form of sizeism I personally experience.) Sizeism can be against people of any size outside of "normal." If you are too fat, too tall, too short, too thin... too anything besides average, you have probably experienced a form of size discrimination against you. Size discrimination includes stereotypes that are seemingly ingrained into society as a whole. For instance, the idea that all fat people are lazy or gluttonous or that naturally thin people starve themselves. The idea that fat people are automatically unhealthy and thin people are all healthy is because of size discrimination. Size discrimination can also come in forms of hazing or harassment. It's the comments about you just for existing in the public eye. The laughter. The people thr

"No." That is a complete sentence.  It doesn't matter what someone is asking of you, no is a complete sentence and answer. You don't have to explain yourself of why it is no, you don't have to negotiate to compromise to another person's wishes.. no is good enough. No is making your answer and your wishes clear.  No isn't open to negotiation.  You don't have to justify you saying no to someones requests or demands. You should never be pressured into doing something you don't want to do. No matter if it's a big deal or something simple,  if you don't want to do it you don't have to do it.  You should never be forced or coerced into turning a solid no into an unwanted yes.  A yes by coercion isn't a yes at all. Saying no isn't "playing hard to get." Saying no isn't the same thing as saying "convince me." No is no. It is complete on it's own. "No." That is enough. Don't be h

Why you so mad? Everyone is so upset about Caitlyn Jenner winning a Woman of the Year award. You morons. You freaking morons.   Glamour honored multiple women in multiple categories. It's now called the "Women of the Year" awards for a reason. The category Caitlyn won from? The Transgender Champion.   Other winners:  Misty Copeland, The Showstopper.  Prima Ballerina. She was promoted to principal dancer at American Ballet Theatre, the first African American ballerina to reach that level in the elite classical ballet company’s 75-year history. Cecile Richards: The Health Advocate  Yes, the Planned Parenthood woman, who stood up for women's rights to healthcare and debunked nasty rumors about her organization. The women of Charleston who survived the hate-motivated mass murder at Emanuel African Methodist Episcopal Church; then continued to preach forgiveness. Elizabeth Holmes: The Entrepreneur.  A woman who encourages women to enter

I am not a "good" fat person. I used to be a good fat person, but I'm not anymore. I'm a bad fat person. A good fat person, covers up. Not because they want , but because they feel they have to. A good fat person feels shame about themselves. They are ashamed of themselves, some of them hate themselves. Some of them do dangerous things to change their fat, to be the good fatty. They not only diet and exercise, but do it to extreme amounts that it's not healthy anymore. They starve their bodies, they put their body through hell... to try and be a good fatty. A good fat person tries to hide their size. They shrink back as much as they can, try to exist as little as they can, in as little space as they possible can. A good fat person apologizes... they apologize just for existing. For being alive. For taking up space. Good fat people apologize. I'm not a good fat person. I'm a bad fat person. I'm the fat person that will NOT apologize. I also won

It's amazing that I actually have to remind people this but: skinny shaming is just as bad as fat shaming . Body shaming of ANY kind of body is bad. It's naive and ignorant to pretend it isn't. Every body is unique. That's a fact to be celebrated, in my opinion, but apparently in society it's a bad thing; we don't all fit into a perfect cookie cutter shape. Some people are naturally big .. some people are naturally thin. There is no shame in either of these facts, but there is a lot of shame in how society treats each of them.  Telling a thin woman to "eat a sandwich" is just as offensive as telling a bigger woman to "put the sandwich down."  Telling a skinny woman things like "bones are for dogs" and "real men like curves" is rude and cruel. Trying to tell women with natural thigh gaps that it means their vagina is "loose" (it's surrounded by fucking muscle, by the way. Muscles can be toned ev

Glorifying Obesity. Fat people being happy and existing in the public eye without shame is now called glorifying obesity. If you are a fat person who doesn't hate themselves, you're glorifying obesity. If you are overweight and aren't on a strict diet of lettuce and working out every single day, you're glorifying obesity. Fat people, who have decided that no, they don't have to hate themselves or hide away or apologize for existing, are GLORIFYING OBESITY.  Does anyone else truly understand how ignorant that entire idea is? Fat people who aren't ashamed of themselves aren't prancing around going "Admire me, for I am wonderful! Aspire to be exactly like me!" They aren't telling small children to stuff their faces and gain as much weight as possible. They aren't telling ANYONE "be like me, look like me!" No, they're going "Hey, I'm fat. And I deserve common decency too. I deserve to go out in public and not b

Lane Bryant recently launched a campaign called "Plus is Equal." On the surface, it's a seems like a spectacular thing, a company who caters to plus size women calling for body diversity in the media...what could be wrong about that? (Before anyone wants to go "promoting obesity" I'd like to extend the warmest possible fuck you to you and tell you that fat people existing promotes nothing except their right to exist.) I, as a plus size woman, do believe that plus is equal. I'm a human, just like every other various sized human out there, and we ALL deserve some common decency and a good level of respect. Skinny shaming is just as wrong as fat shaming, telling a skinny person to put down a cheeseburger is just as offensive as telling a fat person to put theirs down.  Basically, I'm not an asshole and don't believe others should be assholes either. But, upon looking closer at "Plus is Equal" I have to question if Lane Bryant actu

Personal boundaries... some of us feel selfish for putting them into place; I personally still feel like a jerk most of the time when I vocalize my boundaries to people who are toeing the line to crossing them, but despite these feelings it's important to recognize just how needed boundaries are. Many of us have been affected by the "disease to please", we're scared of disappointing people and just want to help them or not be hated. This leads us to making ourselves uncomfortable and sacrificing our own self care to care for others. I want to remind everyone that there's no shame in having personal boundaries. You're not a bad person for setting boundaries for yourself, it's actually a huge part of self care. What you allow to happen is what will continue, so if someone's actions or words make you uncomfortable: speak up! You are not selfish.  You are instead, caring for yourself. There's a difference between the two, no  matter what someone e

Let me just start by saying, I'm really sick and tired of women being accused of being either "too sensitive", a "bitch", or god forbid a "Femnazi" when we assert ourselves as something more than a doormat. If a woman points out something sexist that you've said, that's not her being overly sensitive or anything besides being tired of the shit we constantly face. I don't think many people actually understand the microaggressions that women and even young girls are faced with every, single day. Ever since we were young we've heard a variety of things that make it seem like being a woman is a bad thing. For example: "You throw like a girl." "Don't be such a pussy." "You're acting like such a bitch." Women who sleep around are called sluts or whores. Men who sleep around get high fives and are called players; because making a conquest of a woman is a game. Usually, women are shamed for losi

They say a picture is worth a thousand words, So I started with one. Bam, look at that BEAUTY. I opened this VoxBox (that I received free from Influenster for testing purposes) and was insanely excited by it. The black box, the golden packages gently wrapped in black tissue paper... I'm such a sucker for packaging. It's why I own quite a few things that I don't even use, the packaging lures me in. It might also be because I'm a hoarder in training, especially with beauty products. I'm also a lover of details. I shouldn't love this small little detail as much as I do, seeing it will be worn away as I use the product, but it added a lovely little addition that added a little more of a special touch to an already luxurious item. (This stuff retails for around $36. Well above my normal price range of "as cheap as possible" so I am REALLY thrilled I got selected to try them.) Onto the swatching! They sent me two full sized produ

There's a radical concept called "bodily autonomy." It's actually, in general, considered a human right. Bodily autonomy means a person has control over who or what uses their body, for what, and for how long. It's the reason why you can’t be forced to donate blood, tissue, or organs. Even if you are dead. Even if you’d save or improve 20 lives. It’s why someone can’t touch you, have sex with you, or use your body in any way without your continuous consent. Continuous consen t, it's your body; you have the right to reject consent when you see fit. How does this apply to pregnancy? Quite frankly, a fetus is using someone’s body parts. Therefore, under bodily autonomy , it is there by permission, not by right. It needs a persons continuous consent. If they deny and withdraw their consent, the pregnant person has the right to remove them from that moment (given that moment falls into the legal range of which abortion can happen. Most happen in the fir

There's been a huge debate going on lately because of some poorly edited videos from a group known for demonizing Planned Parenthood. When really, there shouldn't be a debate at all. We all have our own morals and own beliefs, but our own morals and beliefs can't control another person. Regardless of where you stand on abortion, I'd like to take a moment to talk about what Planned Parenthood actually does and what the people calling for it to be defunded either don't know or don't care about: First off, Planned Parenthood does not sell baby parts. It's a preposterous notion and one based on again, maliciously edited videos. What Planned Parenthood does do is donate tissues for scientific research. (Hospitals do this too.) There is reimbursement for it, but not profit. It works more like a refund, the clinics and hospitals do the work, store the tissues, and ship the tissues; the places accepting donations then compensate them for those things. It's

A wonderful blogger, Fran Hayden, has started a beautiful, empowering project for women. To make the female voice heard instead of silenced. You can find out more on her own blog : Here . Everyday, women are silenced. Even in first world "progressive" countries, there is a shame attached to being a woman; we're supposed to be weaker, meeker, and are chastised no matter how we act. This project is about defining ourselves, refusing to let others define us for us. To show that women are MORE than whatever labels society has slapped onto us. In light of this, I chose the word "Shameless." Because I have chosen to strip myself of the shame society has continually thrown and me and women everywhere. Shameless of everything. Women are shamed, constantly. Shamed for showing our bodies, shamed for NOT showing our bodies. If we're too sexual we're shamed for being sluts. If we're not sexual enough we're shamed for being prudes. We're to

Skinnygirl™ Chocolate Chip Cookie Dough Tasty Nutrition Bar I was given this mouthful of a product by Influenster to test for free. I saw it and my first thought was the name was long and somewhat offensive to me seeing I'm a member of the body positive community; the name left a bad taste in my mouth. But not nearly as bad of a taste as the actual product did.  Pros: It's gluten free, for those of you with dietary restrictions. The packaging also indicates that there are no artificial flavorings or sweeteners in them. They are low calorie, high fiber, and low sodium.  A quick breakdown of their nutrition as described on their website:  120 Calories 10G of Protein 7G of Fiber 4g of Net Carb All in all, they aren't awful for you. They aren't the greatest product out there for you either, but they are better than grabbing the nearest candybar in a checkout line.  Cons: They. Taste. Awful. Not just "oh this tastes diet" but "t

Hi. Hello. Hey there!  This will be my first "official" blog. Right now? I have no clue what direction this thing will go, no idea when I'll find time to post, just generally no idea at all. But it's always nice to introduce yourself, so hello netizens! I'm Shayaunna. Due to my intense love of sriracha, I was nicknamed Shayracha and next thing you know; that's my internet name.  This is my face.  I'm a 23 year old nanny, I consider myself a fat babe though I'm certainly an acquired taste. Aka I don't expect everyone to find me attractive; but that has no bearing on if I feel attractive or not. I enjoy FATshion, am a complete makeup junkie (I call myself a drugstore beauty queen), and tend to have diarrhea of the mouth. Recently, I've become heavily involved in the body positive movement, celebrating not only my own body but encouraging people of all shapes and sizes to love themselves. I'm going to try to make this a positive spa